HARSH STRUGGLE
‘I felt like I had acid being poured inside my head’ reveals Louise Thompson as she shares crippling health battle
Louise wishes that the world was a much less judgmental place
LOUISE Thompson has revealed that she felt like acid was being poured inside her head as she shared her crippling health battle.
The Made in Chelsea star has opened up about what her depression anxiety and PTSD were really like after she nearly died in labour.
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Speaking on TikTok on the He Said, She said podcast, Louise said: "I don't know if this feels a bit unfair but I would love for everybody in the whole world.
"To spend one day with severe depression and one day with debilitating anxiety or PTSD.
"Just so that people could have that perspective and so that they could, would have a lot more compassion for people that have struggled with those diseases."
Louise continued: "The crazy thing about, you know, depression is that it feels very physical.
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"It's not always just thoughts, it's not always just the mental.
"There are really excruciating physical symptoms and I used to feel like I had acid being poured into my head.
"And I think if everybody kind of knew what that felt like, then the world would be a much less judgemental place."
Last month, Louise revealed heart breaking news of her miscarriage in an emotional post, two years after the traumatic birth of her son.
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Louise shares son Leo, three, with fiancé Ryan Libbey, after the couple welcomed him on November 16, 2021.
She posted a photo of a positive pregnancy test, and said: "It’s crazy to think that Leo could have had a sibling born last September.
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"I doubt that it was ever going to work. Probably a mere chemical pregnancy.
"Whatever it was the change in hormones or blood flow to that area caused the most insane amount of bleeding from my bum in the weeks that followed and ended up having my stoma surgery as a result. So capiche. That was the end of that dream.
"My fertility and our fertility journey is something I'm only just starting to wrap my head around 3 1/2 years after the birth of my beautiful son.
"There is a lot I haven’t come to terms with, and I haven’t wanted to until now. I remember my therapist asking me about it a few years ago and she asked whether I was sad about my situation and I just brushed it off.
Help for mental health
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The following are free to contact and confidential:
- Samaritans, www.samaritans.org, 116 123
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Heads Together, www.headstogether.org.uk, is the a mental health initiative spearheaded by The Royal Foundation of The Prince and Princess of Wales.
"It was all way to soon to start thinking about the idea of more anything when I had so much fixing to do.
"But I actually remembered to mention it in a medical appointment last week and it kind of brought about this flood of emotions and it felt quite necessary and quite good. I need to get it out now."
Louise was flooded with messages of support from fans, after her heartbreaking news.
It comes after she said she'd "never have the perfect family," after opening up on her secondary infertility.
Despite dreams of having four children, the condition means the inability to conceive or carry a baby to term after previously giving birth.
Louise wrote in You Magazine: "I could feel something bigger than a party looming over me: the fact that I will never have the 'perfect family' I always thought I would.
"Nothing emphasises the passing of time like your child’s birthday, and I can't deny that when I look around at other friends popping out countless children, it hits home that this is not a reality for us.
"I always imagined I'd have four children. I loved the idea of a big family with lots of noise and different personalities.
"People said it would be hard work, but I liked the idea of each sibling bringing up the one behind them. I wanted to be like the Von Trapps. This will never be my life.
"I used to believe that if you work hard enough you can achieve anything, but that's not true: I will never be able to go back and fix what happened to me.
"There will always be a sadness that I won't experience childbirth again. That sadness is a part of who I am now and I need to learn how to take it forward into the rest of my life."
Sadly, Louise ended up in hospital after writing her thoughts about her health ordeal.
She was rushed in for emergency surgery 11 months after her stoma bag operation - leaving her fiance Ryan "broken".
Louise, had her entire large intestine removed after being diagnosed with ulcerative colitis.
She was fitted with a stoma bag following years of living with the condition, which causes the colon and rectum to become inflamed.
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It came after she nearly lost her life during the birth of her son Leo in 2021, which left her with post-traumatic stress disorder.
Louise has bravely revealed all about her traumatic childbirth in her new book, Lucky.
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